The other day I was listening to a friend share part of her journey in life. She posed the question to herself at one point; "is Jesus really enough?" she was talking about being alone just her husband and kids after moving here a few years back and knowing no one. She started asking the question is Jesus enough to fulfill her?
I have thought long and hard over that question ever since that conversation. Of course my immediate response was "well of course." But then the more I thought about it the more I wasn't entirely sure I was being honest.
I took much satisfaction on having many things and being many things to many people.
So I started making a list of all the things I had and all the things I was apart of that made me feel complete, whole, and worth while.
After I made the list I started going through and crossing off things asking; would Jesus still be enough to fill me up without..." The car, the house, the things, even most of the people I was able to say def yes!
But then the list hit my heart, the things I hold close and care for; the ministries I am involved in, the God given gifts I've been blessed with, my kids; my husband. If I lost all those things would Jesus still be enough!? Would I still trust God and want a close relationship with him? Or do I find more satisfaction in being a wife, mother, teacher?
Though I want to say for sure "yes" I'm not sure that would be being 100% honest. Though I can agree I would still love Jesus and know he is my savior it doesn't mean I wouldn't get a little more than frustrated if I lost those things that bring "meaning" to my life.
Would Jesus really be my all in all? Is he really my everything? Or are those just pretty words I say?
I have come to one conclusion in all of this;
I may never be able to say a true yes to that but I can tell you without a doubt that God proved he loved me enough to give up everything for a relationship with me and to be honest I think that is what really matters. In return I can only hope I would be willing to do the same for Him if that was what He asked of me.
